KL library is BADDDD

Been busy with assignments and paper works which is due TOMORROW. Not relaly tomorrow but i need to hand in the draft hand written. And i'm stuck doing my assignment now, citing, referencing and checking websites.

For so many years i realize the only library i've been to is the school library which was a must during classes. I never been to kl library or any oher library before. So yesterday i was very determine to go to a library to lend some books for my research.

First library was the KL LIBRARY. To apply for a member card it takes 3 weeks for them to approve. So i left. Before that,i went to subang just to interview people working in PAWS.Unfortunetly i couldn't find the place.

So next day,saturday. Took my maths exam again and drove to pj library. The good news is i'm allowed to apply for membership card and lend books on the ery same day. Unfortunetly, i'm not allowed to enter because i'm wearing a mini skirt. FUCK! now,i'm doomed!
Then i checked the regulations, it says
-man with long hair
-singlets
slippers
-tights
-sleeveless shirt
-and mini skirt
are not allowed in the library

Then i gotta come back the next day. This time i wore long pants and shirt with sleeve. I'm so determin to enter and borrow a book from there. Once i enter, went up to level 1. I typed animal rights in the comp and only two list came out. SUCH A HUGE LIBRARY AND THEY ONLY HAVE TWO BOOKS FO9R ANIMAL RIGHTS!!!!!!!!. Ass lorh. Anyway most of the books there are in malay.

What i didn't know is, the books are in one of my friends hand. So they better return it,if not i won't be able to do my assignmets..

John is in langkawi with his friends having fun i'm sure. Eating brownies is no longer fun without him. But it doesn't really change though even if his here in kl because his always busy with his meetings and group work. So, i don't make it a effort anymore in finding for him to go for lunch or dinner. I would know the answer will always be no. So why bother asking.

Dramatic

So many drama going on right now.When is it gonna stop?

Some Things Just Don't Last

Some things in life just won't last no matter how hard you tried to mend it.Maybe its fated to be this way or maybe there is mistakes in life which some of us can never mend. We have got to live with it for the rest of our lives. To forgive someone for a mistake might be possible but for all the things he/she did to a certain individual, it is something which is hard to forget. The torn is already there. Even though its pulled out, the scar remains. So maybe, there is room for improvement. Take the chance and things might work out because there is room to tolerate, to forgive and to forget. =)

The Past Haunts Us

I don't like entering the white room again. Because everytime i enter, i might or might not get blind. When my eye hurt,i'll be scared of it. But that's what i though of when i was a kid.
The past do come back and haunt you. It will come back,it's just the matter of when.
And i'm waiting for it.When it comes back,i'm ready i guess.

Are You Ready For This War?

The greatest reward
is to see the light in your eyes
the touch of your skin
and the love i can give.

You will never be ready for this war my darling
Your not standing up to them today
And i'm sure in future you will not too.

I'm ready for this
I'm ready to face all the consequences
I might be young, but i hell know what i'm doing
And now i'm telling you
I'm here, i'm ready, i'm prepared
Are you, my darling?

Are you willing to back me up?
Will you fight with them for me?
Will you go to war and sacrifice everything
Just for me?

If all is answered yes, then i'm ready to open my arms wide.
If your not, don't return.
You need both hands to make a clapping sound, that's what they say.
You told me so.
Am i a disgrace to you?
Am i not enough for you?
Am i not your girl?

I'm sure you love me
I know you do
But loving me isn't enough
Show me that you love me
Show me that i'm more important to you
Than your family.

If you think it's not a right time to meet them
By all means, fine.
If you think we'r too young, then i say, stop this right now
Don't give me false hope that someday i might be a part of your family
If you want me to wait
I will! But how could i be sure that i will get something back in return?
How sure am i that you will be my backbone someday?
What if that day does not come?

Why care about them when it's just you and me?
Why are we related to them, when we'r the one in a relationship?
Or
Am i in a relationship with your family also?

I don't think you have my back
I don't think this will work if you don't stand up for me

Destiny child sang, stand up for love.